Regaining Stability

Interesting weekend really. I wasn't motivated to do much of anything, but on the bright side I played with Abby A LOT! That's good for both of us. I got her a webkinz last week, and one for myself. It's the biggest trend in kids toys right now, but I'm ok with it. It's a little stuffed animal that sells for about $14 and comes with an ID that gets the child access to this online virtual animated world for the toy. It's really pretty structured, has fun things and educational things for the kid, and she really enjoys it. I didn't mind playing that with her either because there's only so many games of chutes and ladders I can take, and if I play other toys with her she scripts everything I have to say which sucks the remaining life from me. She signed on the laptop upstairs, and I was downstairs and our "pets" could play together on the computer. I really got her this because other kids in her class have it, and I thought it might help her to bond with other kids too by having something in common. We'll see. In the meantime, Slush the polar bear and Ace the pug are having fun.

In other events, I spent time with my sister at the salon on Thursday. I let her know what I had rehearsed to tell her partner, and even shared with her that I was sick of feeling tolerated. Although there were no earth shattering revelations there, it felt good to let those thoughts out to another participating human and I think they've left me a bit.

I avoided other people for the most part. That was good. My mom did tell me the thing that happened at church and it was really a non-event that she blew up in my mind to something much bigger by trying to mess with me. Turns out George badly flubbed the Gloria to the point where he started in on the organ, then stopped mid song, moved to the piano stopped and started again while the poor cantor looked on helplessly. Not really a surprise since we know his attitude toward practicing.

So I haven't cried in days and I'm just coasting for now. Coasting at this point is a relief from spiraling out of control.